I am recovering for a total hysterectomy...which, I am sure was Gods way of slowing me down, letting me take a good look at my life. I had so much junk going around in my head.. and then, when I thought it could all be over...started looking at it from another direction. Blame starts to change its face. Should it be blame...or consent? Was it forced on me, or, did I fall in behind? Did I share in all the things that happened around me? Unfortunately, I came up with yes...that we are in full control of our own life, we just have to do it.
As it turns out, nothing to be afraid, it is all gone and it was negative. So, can breathe easy with that. BUT, all the things I had in my mind are still there.
This year, 2012, I hope to make changes to my life..to try & find some of the things within me that I have lost. A spark that was there & seems to be covered by so much that has happened over the past 20yrs. It took 20yrs so it will not be over, resolved or put in motion, in one sitting.
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